Wednesday, September 13, 2006
wa..long time no blog le..sianz..haas..i'm laughing @ myself..thinking tat e relationship wld last..but it didnt..we jus broke off..o7o906..wanna noe wad happen?i'm putting all my moods on studying la..thn he keep saying he emo,sad,crying..its irritating to mi..somemore if a guy keep saying lyk tat, as a ger u will c him as a weak guy,irritating..rite? tat day was a thurs,i went for sws de main band prac la..but i intended to go till 930pm thn go home..if not my dad noe,he'll kill mi..i went there 2 get my disc from him and most importantly to see my friends whom i missed so much..whn i reach there,i saw a bouquet of flowers,sunflowers,a letter,and my disc..i was shocked. e 1st thing tt came 2 my mind was:how am i suppose to bring it home?lata my sis or bro keep asking who is it from? thn how?y he gif mi flowers?..i sae there's no need for flowers wad..he said he should gif de..thn he ask mi to read e letter..b4 tat,we promised each other to gif sth as a rememberance cuz he flying to manchester,UK on tis coming fri which is 15 sept.. i took my frens paperbag to put e stuffs la thn i went to toilet..cuz he ask mi to tok outside band room.but i don1..so i go hide inside toilet..cuz i don wanna see him...don feel lyk seeing him..don ask mi y am i feeling lyk tat..but i jus don wanna see him..thn my fren called mi,ask mi if i'm playing anot,thn i sae i'm not..thn somehow he noe where am i,he stood outside calling my name ..he noes i'm inside but i refused to go out and see him..until my fren jolin came to look for mi and she helped mi to escape from tat place to go home la..thn i jus went home..i read e letter whn i reach home and i saw a ring inside..i saw wad he wrote and i had no emotions tat time..i'm quite a emotional person but i was surprized myself tat i feel nth..perhaps ppl will sae me veri cruel,cold-blooded..but its ok..i think tat of myself too..he waited below my block de playground and i refuse to go down and see him..after sometime,and after my frens lead mi to my heart's ans,we broke up..i felt relieve..so relieved..but soon after i cried for 3 days.. every night my tears jus came down..perhaps i'm feeling guilty..i don want to relationship to restart.. so i guess its out of my guilty conscience tat i'd cried..well i guess its over..i jus need to wait till fri..after fri i no need to worry abt anything except my O lvls =) however,freedom will not be given even if i wait till fri..cuz there's another guy from swsy,my section,says he liked mi..OMG..whn can tis stop? i don wanna bother this kinda thing anymore lo..but i now,@ this moment,i'm gng to tell him:hey...i don lyk you,i reali wanna concentrate on my studies..so pls don come and bother mi le.." and this guy made mi cant breathe..no where to breathe..i don want him to be my stead oso..although he treat mi veri gd la..but i still cant treat him lyk stead...i cant imagine tat..i don want..i want freedom..though e feeling of lonliness is unbearable,i oso will wait for my ONE to appear..i jus some1 who is understanding,lots or care and concern for mi,gif mi freedom,non irritable person..of cuz i'm a typical singaporean so i would find those wid smooth complexion if available la..hahahs..i don wanna find those too skinny,nth to hug de..lolx..rofl..thinking too much..still having prelims leh..abt 2 mths thn having O lvls le..lol kk la..i gng to study for tmr paper le...signing off le.. babye..i missed some1..
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